Papa, written by Jessica Buchanan


I keep searching for you in all the things you left behind.
In the Boars Head hat with the elastic completely worn.
In your eyes right where the lights been torn.
I’m numb and I think that means I’m forgetting.

I think that’s why I keep collecting your things.
So I don’t forget your chair at the center of the table.
That album filled to the brim with pictures and more importantly stories.
But those words keep slipping through my grip.
It keeps fading.
The old phone charger in a hotel room in Jersey.
Your wise cracks delivered in perfect time.

I will never be able to collect enough of you.

This is where you would tell me to look inside myself.
In front of myself.
To remember that I’ll be the reminder.
A living memory.
And not always a thing completely torn.

<img class="wp-block-coblocks-author__avatar-img" src="; alt="<strong>Jessica Buchanan
Jessica Buchanan

Hi! I am a 29-year-old from New York.
I love people watching, being a movie fanatic and devouring romance novels when I’m not writing and/or forcing my friends to listen to it.

Writing has been a passion of mine from a young age and is often my easiest form of communicating.
I began taking my writing more seriously after a few back to back episodes of anxiety and depression. I began journaling everyday, multiple times a day. It was my only way of not screaming.

The thought of people going through similar situations alone is what made me want to share my stories.
I believe that’s why we are all here. Writing to me is the purest form of relatability.

If I can make one person feel less alone, I’ve done my job.
My writing Instagram if you would like to follow my journey (and I would love to have you) is @tothelittleguys

My most recent passion project with two of my friends is @longislandpoets. We hope to bring together all the beautifully talented poets of Long Island!

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